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Oct
19

This is getting really infuriating. Like I don’t have enough doubts myself about this whole situation, and if we’re really going to pull it off. Everything feels so unnatural. And everyone seems to be inventing little ways to stand in the way — like it’s their last grasp on defiance toward the whole idea; their only way to express their concern — by getting in the way of execution. You’d be making more money if you didn’t focus on this, Patrick. This is the stupidest idea I think you’ve ever had, Patrick. If I were you and I wanted to pour my life and my spare time into something, I would have picked something better, Patrick. This isn’t a family of support, it’s a family of judgment — where if they don’t quite understand what you’re trying to do, you shouldn’t be even trying.

If I would have known a post-X-mas sit down with ham sandwiches and a few CDs from some essay contest I was a winner of would have brought us all to this, I would have thought again.

The night was spent in my father’s garage. Chris is in town with the boy and Adrian and I asked her to bring up her camcorder so we could start shooting tests of the presentation script. (Yes, because we don’t have a camera of our own, anymore.) We need to start doing demos and see how the whole thing sounds. Horrible, if the first try is of any indication — and it’s surprising that we even got through it.

Why my father found it necessary to start running the vacuum at the exact same moment that we started to shoot in the garage, and why Christine chose to start rolling Micam around in his little walker thing at the exact same moment that my father started using the vacuum, and why they both had to keep coming to the door between the garage and the kitchen only to ask what we were doing and when we were going to be done … eludes me. They knew what we were up to. They knew we wouldn’t be done for a while. They both knew that if we don’t get this done, something we’d been working on for a while would be even further delayed — and possibly never viewed because who the hell knows how many people are actually showing up in the morning at Cyan offices right now.

Eventually, we got somewhere. After the moments on camera where I’m bitching about my life and the circumstances of the moment - the ridiculousness of it all. After the moments where we’re laughing so hard to break the frustration hanging in the air that one of us simply starts drooling. After the moments when I stare blank-faced into the little Canon camcorder and simply say: I don’t want to do this anymore.

As we were packing up, Chris came out through the door and plopped the boy into my lap. He wants to see his father for a few minutes before bed, she says - can you stop playing filmmaker for a few minutes and pay attention to your family? I hate it when she uses him to get her way.

1:14 am

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StarCat79
Feb 22 2008

>.<….You know as a female I am appalled at her behavior. If this had been a project she was trying to get done she would have been furious at the interruptions and the petty behavior…She should have been supporting you and running interference! Before anyone else jumps in to defend her I will say that i don’t interrupt my partner when he’s busy, regardless of whether it’s work related or just prepping for his D&D game for “Boy’s Night Out”…i make sure he has the time, he’s on track, and that he has no interruption’s. Okay time for me to shut up, It’s just that when women don’t at least hold up their end of a partnership i get kinda pissed…that kind of lack of partnership courtesy is one of many reasons why relationships fail. I admire you for sticking to this project and still loving your wife and family with the grief that they have caused. Hope your Patience holds up under the coming trials and tribulations until the project is complete.



Thanks for the support and your point - but understand that the post is written from my perspective at the time. The reality is that during that period they lived in Texas, and I was here — the situation was kind of complicated. Our time together was limited, including this visit - so to have any attentions elsewhere was always stressful in the moment. She’s in support of the project but wasn’t at the time, and has expressed that she couldn’t be if we were still together. It’s all taken too much of my attention.



I thought I should say a few words here. It is a sticky situation to post personal information for others’ consumption. To get too wrapped up in relational issues that are, at best, hinted at in these posts is ultimately to miss the point. Please understand that the reason for the inclusion of this kind of information is due to its relevance to our state of mind and the pressures we were under at a particular moment in the process. The information is presented through journal entries, and journals are, by nature, very biased commentaries. They are representative of our feelings at that exact moment, and lack the clearity of reason and the full understanding of the perspectives of all those involved. I don’t want to discourage people from commenting, but I would like to ask that we try to avoid defamation of those mentioned on this site.



StarCat79
Feb 25 2008

Sorry, just trying to show support and my empathy. As a female from my particular family any of us girl’s, regardless of the circumstances, would have received hell from the rest of the family for not being supportive…as it is I still get chastised for not being supportive of my better half, not to mention that it gets pointed out that regardless of the circumstances I should still be supportive. I don’t want to change my man…he is who he is, we both have faults…but i do apologize. My initial gut reaction comes from a lifetime of “you don’t try to change the man, be supportive, but don’t let yourself be pushed around….”. Feel free to look for my posts on the MOUL forums and on the Uru Obsession Forums…I am willing to admit I am a flawed human being…(not to mention I instigated a Fight with an ex-mysterium committee member when they felt they still had a right to comment on what the community wanted from the current mysterium commitee) admittedly I only did so since they felt that the organization and execution of such an event is complex and difficult to pull off. I didn’t agree as I have pulled off events similar to mysterium (for pre-adult girl scouts) all on my own. I tend to jump in to voice alternative points of view, as well as to defend those who are more than likely to not defend themselves. Many humble apologies for my particular personality quirk.



Mystfanatic
Mar 26 2008

That must have hurt for her to say that too you. I’m sorry. But remember, you did win that contest, You did convince Cyan to support you in making the Myst movies, and You have already gotten so far. You have pretty much all of the Myst fan community watching and supporting you. Good luck you guys, we are all counting on you!


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