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I’m finding myself in a bit of an odd head-space lately. I’ve been reading through past entries, prepping them for posting, and it’s having a pretty strong emotional effect on me.
This has been a long and arduous journey. Bi-polar is definitely an appropriate descriptor. Combing through all of the documentation of the process has sent a lot of memories and feelings flooding back. Some have been really enjoyable to re-live. Others have pretty difficult and painful. It’s a strange and unexpected side-effect.
All of the ups and downs have left my head spinning a bit. Yesterday, after having read a few posts from a period in which things weren’t looking very good for us, I found myself feeling really negative about this whole endeavor. It didn’t seem to matter how far we’ve come since then. I was just stuck in the emotional reality of the past. This resulted in a somewhat crippling battle with negativity. Most of the day was spent trying to talk myself out of the hole I had thrown myself into. The good news is that I managed to put the defeatist thoughts behind me last night and get another five pages of the script knocked out.
Today, I have made the decision to focus my nostalgia trip on a more positive time period in the history of this project. Maybe I’ll manage ten pages today.
3:48 pm














Mar 17 2008
Heh, maybe you should only read depressing entries when you’re working on depressing bits of script…? or that might be too much…
But I completely understand how it is. I get the same thing when I go back through some of the ancient dusty files on my computer (I have some stuff here that goes back to middle school. files that have survived the deaths of no less than four computers.) Some of them make me smile, others make me facepalm at my own stupidity… and some make me wonder what the heck I’m fighting for anyway.
(also; sent you a PM over at Uru Obsession. so just fyi.)