

07
It’s become clear to me over the last several months that I — have problems. I do not know when to stop. I don’t see when enough is enough. I have some sort of wish for pain. I am clearly unqualified to take on all that I am. I am just nuts.
I spent another 4 1/2 hours today in a dentist chair. This was after 4 hours last Wednesday. This on top of many other things. A commitment to maintaining a promotional website for an endeavor toward a major motion picture. While playing my part to develop said major motion picture. While working a full time job. While (poorly) performing the care and feeding for a serious relationship. And being a mostly absent father to a mostly phenomenal son.
I am exhausted. In chronic pain for the past week. With a restored tooth that’s going to be -hot- for another week or so. And a jaw joint that’s about to explode from oral trauma.
I am eating Advil like no tomorrow. I am staring at another Hydrocodone bottle trying to decide if I should get started. I am fantasizing about a prime cut filet mignon that I could actually chew (with the fully restored right side of my face). While simultaneously planning a fantasy trip to Vegas for 5, 6 days or so. (With the knock out blond of my choice - she’s chosen.) And needing to vacuum the living room.
I am prepping more material leading up to the unveiling of the animatic. I am doing my part to tell the story. I am needing to call Sarah to say Hi and fill Ryan in on next steps. I am needing a blasted Jack and Code or a smooth cognac on I.V. drip. And a nap infused with prayer (and no jumbo carpenter ants clocking in at 5 oz.)
I need to start running again. Stop smoking. Floss more often. Finish Eclipse. See Prince Caspian. Buy a house. Not make video game movies.
And I want meatloaf. Good meatloaf. The kind Carla’s makes for me, even though she despises eating it. (Love her.)
9:05 pm














May 07 2008
Keep soldiering on Patrick, something inside you has been itching you to attempt this, and you’ll regret the missed opportunity. We support you!